Dreams

They're hard to recall now.

I know there was one where there were a bunch of people.  My grandma was there and she came in and smiled like someone I went with.  I went with this person to like our fantasy place.  There was like a moat and we had "dogs" which were like monster Harry Potter dogs.  Like, they had all these details, like were hard and horny and like a bluish blackish silvery color.  They had the body of like a dinosaur with plates and horns on them and their head just barely resembled that of a dog, probably no floppy ears.  That's interesting because Tim Burton is doing a movie on dogs and also recently posted a video of how he likes monsters.  So, I perched on a tree with some other weighted down dark grayish, slimy, maybe scaly creatures.  I was on a higher branch, safe from some predators.  I'm not sure what the other person was doing.  So, I've had dreams where I could sustain myself in air, and we did that.  We came back.

We sat at a long table.  I was like at a class, and this person reached across the table and touched my hand.  So, I willed that another person do that later, and they did.  They were both adults to me.  I willed different things and they happened, though not in substance.  The 2nd person came over to me and we ended up going away.  It wasn't really that cool, nor do I get why it was so dilapidated.  Had a slightly bad evening.

Anyway, the big room where the person smiled at me was like dark and dim with a maybe bright brown table and some dark bluish sofas and I was on the floor with the other person I flew around with for awhile.

I don't know if there was anything amazing about this dream, maybe when the 2nd person sat down, maybe when I started to see the dogs.  It's like I've become brain dead from listening to classical music.  Mainly, now, what's my problem is a pimple in my ear that hurts.  I think it's made me fall apart.  I also ran out of vitamin C.  I could get some today, but I'm not sure if I will.  I need to submit to some local agencies this week and think one will accept me.  I think I got turned down by 3 for 6 months.

So, the dream seems pretty dilapidated and dirty.  I didn't make it to the shower last night.  I guess last night's dream was better.  My ear really has made me feel falling apart.  I might not work out until it heals.  It's a more acute yet watered down pain, today.  Also, I didn't feel as settled after supper.  It seems things have a tendency to turn around and nip me in the butt.  I feel people have treated me unfairly and that my life could have been better, otherwise.  I am happy for each moment that comes about, though.  I used to not be like that, really.  I know when something bad happens something good follows, like when it's not your responsibility.

The place we were flying around in was like a dinosaur jungle, dimly lit.  It was the main feature of the dream.  It's funny for some reason I thought of a plane before and after the dream, too, so it disturbs me that my dreams are spitefully manipulated and tracked.  Yesterday, I got up like any other day, but some people are really antsy and won't make things go.  Then, they might try to go back on your word that things are okay, later.  So, not only was it not a good evening, but I don't know what to look forward to today.  Some people really don't make sense and don't care about you.

So, I hope my dreams become substantial.  I remember when life was grand and people were more submissive.  Submissive to understand.

I guess for some reason I felt bad yesterday, not sure why, not as mad, anymore.  My ear is really bothering me.  It's changed my whole body.  I hope the healing process after it's better goes rather quickly.  I guess it's like having a fever but not as bad.