Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Have to Do What I Have to Do

So, I have to go into acting now, and I want to make money.  I need it for my aesthetics and health.

Asians

It's only Asians who are discriminated against.

Luxury

If I had luxury, I'd probably have an easier time posting on the internet and would do things like everyone else, like watch TV shows and not be up at odd hours.

Ultimate Intent

It seems people are ultimately intent that Asians fail.

Imperfection

It seems that first Johnny Depp says something negative and then fixes it with something positive, just to be stimulating.  I wonder why it works to go along with that the world is imperfect

Tim Burton Looking Like His Kids

Did you notice Tim Burton looks more like his kids after they were born?

Johnny Depp and His Fans

Johnny Depp's fans are so willing to be so generous to him because they don't want someone else|other people to take the limelight, other than him.

Johnny Depp wants to be seen as any other actor to them because they're younger and it just doesn't seem as prestigious.

Being in Trouble

It looks like it's about not being weird when someone gets in trouble oddly.  People eventually feel guilty about it.

Assisted Living

People should get safe computers for people in prison and have psychiatrists monitor their conduct online like on a funny farm.

A couple around 20 ... the girl gave the keys to the boyfriend and allowed him to drink and drive.  He killed 2 people, by accident.  They were sent to prison for 30 years.

People drink and drive and are not punished for it.  They also are not that big a danger to society.  They want to teach people a lesson and set an example.

Those people should even be allowed to be movie stars and be monitored by guards!  It is unlikely people like them would be trouble.

Dream

Like, there was a guy, around 20 or 25 sitting on a chair.  I was nearby and was thinking of sitting in a chair next to his, maybe with foliage in between, and turning on a recent lecture of the movie.  The chairs were like fancy and gold with plants embedded shinily in the material.

Dream

Also, some of my relatives were sitting on a couch together.  I think there were four of them, and I don't know who one was.  They were thinking of me and how I hadn't seen them since my early high school days.

Dream

There were movies going on, and I like signed up to be involved.  Even, I was at like a place like a hotel where the people involved were.

I may go back to bed, unsure if I can, though.

Also, I would go in a series of pools with my head covered with something clear, and I could see what I looked like, by choice, when I stuck my head underwater and felt silly but not perverted.  I did this a few times.  It was into some containers  Like it was a clear tub with maybe a swerve in the shape.

Sleep .... Not Yet

I might feel like going to sleep soon.  ^99^

I guess I'll go scout the IMDb boards.

The Dentist

I went to the dentist this morning.  Gonna go post on IMDb.

Right Frame of Mind

I found you do have to get in the right frame of mind when you do something and communicate something through it.

Julie Andrews

She's probably getting an artificial voice, but she hasn't sang in 15 years.

Highly Accepting

People are so caught up in faults of being white they tend to accept a lot of things.  :|

When the Time is Right

Do some people have problems feeling things the right way?  Because my feelings can be pretty abstract.  It'll happen when the time is right.

You never know.

In gymnastics, you don't really know where you'll land.

Criminal With a Long Face

This man with a long face committed murder: Article.

Irish Student Killed

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Limitations

What do you think about other people's decisions limiting you?
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Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Post I Saved From Awhile Ago

So, it seems that someone is so important that my life is like centered around this person.  I don't like it when that happens to me because someone wants something from me.

Happy to Someone

Do you ever feel stimulated to be happy to someone?

Something Awful

I'm not sure why one person would be blamed with something awful.

A Quick Fix

What do you think of a quick fix?

I guess some people think what you see is what you get.

I'm not sure why I'm even going into this?  Wait, I guess it is a question.

New Photos of Me

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Tim Burton's Lifestyle

If Tim Burton wanted to live life in private with his girlfriend, why bargain people out of others's?  It seems like he uses his family as a tool.  It seems like his girlfriend enjoys other people having a good time with him, though.  I enjoy that a lot, as well.  He seems to be pretty strict.  I'm a pretty moral person, so I found it pretty easy to feel like I would be on his good side.

Waiting for Me to Mess Up

It seems like people are just waiting for me to mess up.

Not Trying to Sound Insulting

Some people obviously don't or can't appreciate what they have.

Others Being Mad

Did you wonder upon others's disappointments of you and have it mirrored to your own with them which makes sense?  That's just bad, to me, and unattractive.  It sounds picky and chosy, stuck up and snobbish.  It might be coincidental, but it doesn't make you look smart to get mad in a complicated way and have it be okay just for you to do it.

Not That Bad

People are so overprotective of key other person.  They use it as a tool for others to prove that someone isn't being treated too well and that they know there are other people in the world.  It's used as a buffer.  I forget that and get annoyed when I do something that's not really bad.

MySpace and Facebook

Isn't it funny MySpace and Facebook didn't become popular until my 2nd year of high school?

Must have been antsy about giving out class information, I figured.  Then, it was a big thing and everyone was like giving out their address, overall.

Dream

I remember I was in bed, thinking of something.  Other things happened and in my mind.

My mom wanted me to get up, in a way.  I think some people came in.  They were like adults who were younger judging, maybe like what used to be 30.

Some boys or people saw me in bed.

It was like a hospital setting, I remember now.  I was supposed to watch Logan's Run but was too tired, last night.  I saw them bring in people from the hospital and I gaped at someone with a not too big wound bandaged under their heart.  There were other people, too.  I thought I would be brought into a hospital.

Someone else came and approved of me and we exchanged contact information.  My notecards turned out to be used, that I have in my room, and I didn't go get the big colored ones.  I thought I had smaller ones.  I had some kind of paper with designs, maybe notecards, which turned out to be stationary.  I started with my e-mail and MySpace and, remembering from something, wrote passages under each entry, not sure what, though, but it was like I did it, though I don't remember doing it.  A piece was torn of the picture.  The other person tore it.  So, I started over.  There was a paper with like purple and black checkers.  I at first got one with red hearts in some kind of design, not to fancy.  I picked out a fancy picture of hearts with things in different colors as a big section at the bottom.  I don't know why the other person took awhile to write down like 4 or 5 things, while I was walking around, like looking for my stationary.  It seems like, in the dream, it would be 5 minutes, but in reality it was 1 maybe.  Also, something that almost entered my mind awake maybe during the day, when I made a card of my password to the community college, was a little upturn in the corner.  It's funny the community college just changed from being called "Community" in the name to just "College."

So, the dream ended, probably, with my not finishing.  The person was looking over me.

I actually slept enough tonight, not waking up in too short of intervals.  I slept from around 1:30 A.M. to 6:30 A.M.  I woke up again at 8:00 A.M. and slept until about 10:20 A.M.  So, that's about 9 hours total.

New Video of Me and a Spider

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Something Asked to Do

I still don't understand why someone would be mad at something they wanted you to do and can change and make things different, in a way they're not supposed to be, though the exact thoughts escape me..

New Photos of Me

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Tweeting

Tweeting takes a long time.  I miss the people I used to Tweet.  I wonder if I should go back.  I still Tweet sometimes.

Monday, August 27, 2012

New Videos of Me Talking

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Things to Go Smoothly

You just wonder what could have been and I guess how to avoid the plot holes..

Also, I never was a mushy person.

Annoying People

So many people go crazy if you go into details and make out like something else happened and then do something they aren't supposed to do that isn't really funny.

More Videos & Bye for Now

More videos coming up, but for some reason YouTube is taking a long time to load.

Bye for now!

Random Thoughts

What do you think of being blamed for something you didn't do.

Also, I know I was totally knocked out of my ways when I moved from Florida to New Orleans.

I figured you feel guilty because others make you.

Going Through Life

So, basically, people think doing things that aren't elevated are what make you always right, even when you're always wrong.  What a way to go through life.

Seriously

Obviously, I can take it seriously.

I guess I can play a game.

As long as I don't think "I'm not that good" and that there isn't any reason to say anything.

New Pictures of Me

Top of My MySpace

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Dirt Cheap

People are offering cheap stimulation of you thinking you're "not that good."

New Videos of Me Talking and Singing

New Pictures of Me and Videos of Me Talking on the Way

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Doesn't Make Sense

People think they can just keep suggesting more things to me.

My Life!

I see no one cares about my feelings.

Some people are pretty blunt, too.

I can't believe the expenses made to me and how people have barged in on my life!

I care.

See, I care about others's feelings.

Settling In

I guess things will settle in, eventually.

What's Important & Details

What's important to you anyway, and who doesn't go into details?  I've been told I was actually detail-oriented, sometimes come on in a way as one big mass put together of many details.

Mixed Heritage

People with mixed heritage in places like Florida think that things literally do things and literally do things instead of letting problems get in their way.  :|

Pretty European, Pretty Happy

I guess if you're pretty European, you're pretty happy.

Becoming Less Special

Did you ever find that in others wanting you to be special you became less special because they couldn't stand it after you refused having it that way, having done that to set you up, actually, just acting like they weren't doing it?

New Photos of Me

New videos of me talking and singing coming up!  (I'm going somewhere, though.)

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Unfeeling

So, are people today unfeeling?

Relationships Without Rapport

Do you ever talk to someone just to prove your relationship?

Ever wonder why you don't know more of them in the first place?  Shouldn't rapport be established?

Ill Wishes

People want me to not be able to deal with things.

"Logan's Run"

It's cooler than Ender's Game, which I only know the My Fair Lady song from, which is being remade right now with Abigail Breslin starring in it, and Star Wars, which I don't understand, at all, still.

It's because you see the picture of the people running.

Something else to remember is that living life in compartments like with technology is a nostalgia of the times.  It seems we're so advanced in thinking now that our life is centered on the ecosystem.

Something Special

You know when you're used to being special for something and someone wants to take it away from you?

Need to Make an Account

I need to make an account online but am going to bed soon.  Might post online some more, though.

Money

My money is disappearing.  My IMDb Pro expired and I can't buy Logan's Run online.

Things That Stand Out

Look for things that stand out.

Check this out.

5:07 - 5:55, when you see the middle part is interesting.  It's part of Logan's Run:

Turner Classic Movies

Aura

I guess it comes down to do you really like the romance of being serious and unsubmissive?

Floating

When I was floating in my dream, I was sitting indian style.

Things Waking You Up

It's interesting how, simply, serious things wake you up and how much.

There's always a reason, though, or there can be.

Feeling Things

It seems that for some reason people don't like people to feel certain things.

Live Life Young

Live your life young and you won't feel you die too suddenly because you're not living what you were supposed to live before.

Living Life as Young People

People born around the late 50s and|ore early 60s are more attractive as people existing when later generations are born.

Predecessors

So, is it more that younger generations are more doubled over physically trying to match their predecessors, at certain years of generations?

Guilt-Ridden

I guess they confuse me and make me do something they say they don't like and then make me feel guilty for it forever.

What I Want

When I realize|d I had the right to do whatever I wanted, like be who I want, people close in on me and say no somehow, but I can't grasp that thought, at the moment.

"Logan's Run"

In Logan's Run, there is definitely true symbolism in the image of them running, having to run... reminiscent of the hardships of living in the 80s.

I'm curious as to why things aren't all nostalgic like in the 80s.  I know you can get into a rap or get on a roll.  You get into being cool and forget about the past, like how significant life was in the 50s!

I'm curious and concerned about young kids today.  I know they have parents from the 60s, teenagers and young adults today.  I grew up when they were still young adults, but they didn't look like teenagers, at all.  I think people just crave sex and never got it in the right way, like from someone older, from like the 60s or like late 50s.

So, I'm wondering how young kids today know about things in the 80s.  It seems like the 70s and 60s were transitory years from the 50s.

Life is serious and boxed up if you live in the mindset of the 50s.  People still know about life being made of physical labor, as well as encampment.  Life may not be that exciting for some, but it sure is important.  It seems it's what people make up as a whole.

Like, it's a big sensation and collection of thoughts and feelings.  I'm sure the parents have their own rendition.  It doesn't seem as authentic and seems more Mickey Mouse.  It might be there, whereas with me it's like not.  I don't live removed, though, from it, for some reason.  Like, I'm not a new generation just living off the fact I have older parents.  I myself embody the past.

You can probably easily break down feelings like this if you want, but it makes you feel like gay.

Feelings don't always go away.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Best Stay Indoors (Not Necessarily Literally!)

Older people who are bitter or even not completely so can affect you in adverse ways just by taking their time, thinking maybe they really want to talk to you, depending on the relationship.
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Bait ... Er ... Hostages?

So, would someone torture their kids in order to lure their husband or boyfriend to get closer to them otherwise?  Why would they even have that problem, in the first place?

Offensive

So, do people want something explosive and offensive happen to their pleasure and liking?

Agencies

I have 7 hopeful agencies in Orlando to get in a movie.

2 I have to get ready to mail to tomorrow.  (I have the pictures ready to print.)

1 I have to reformat my picture tomorrow.

1 I e-mailed.

1 I have to maybe call.

The remaining 2 have been submitted to.

1 just let me do a profile and then wouldn't let me log in.  Neither would another one where I didn't look at all the dancing types and missed ballroom and probably line dancing.

Seems Perfect When You Compare

You can look at someone younger and say it's better, and it will seem so because you noticed they were younger.

Waiting for the Verdict

Do you know more than one person who acts like things are okay, but then something shows up?

Time or Exposure

Is it time or exposure that's the problem?

Having Nothing

I went through a period of time where I thought it was good to throw away things.

Listening to Some People

I notice some people listen to others by default.

Dream

I was being pushed to be stimulated, in my mind, by someone.

Some people came over to our house.  Two of them were in a room sleeping in a bed of mine, with other beds in the house.  There was a big room with my real bed and another bed.  Then, there was another room with maybe another 2 beds, one with like a side of four separate places.  Our house in the oldest continuing city in the U.S. had 2 bedrooms connected by a door.  It was a small house, 95 years old, in the middle marking of the city, closest to the middle save for one on one side of it.

I was able to float in the air and told the other person.  I had a feeling I really could, though my dreams of flying and falling stopped, maybe in 2010.

We were going to Disney World tomorrow, that one person and others and I.  I was supposed to call someone there with a British accent to get help telling her I can float.

We went to Disney.  There was a feeling of going there yesterday, which maybe we did.  My mom and I wanted to get these things.  There were notebooks.  I know one was a calendar.  They were for different things, like maybe a week book and a phone book.  There was a sale to get a little something extra with it.  One was $2.40 that I wanted to get.

I don't know if all those people actually came.

There were people judging me, several I think English.  I mean the people working at the store, like it was a place for us to gather and be judged.  There were a lot of thoughts taking place, not just a store.  It was like thick random thoughts above my head.

I slept late today, 3:00 A.M.  I was looking up information about film acting classes.  I woke up once or twice.  I hope to go to bed early more, but I was just up online looking up things.  I did retire to my room early after jogging.  I'm not sure that I was doing much else.  Like, I was in my room by maybe 7:00 P.M.  I'd been going to sleep at 5:00 P.M. for a few days.  I'm getting thinner from sleeping more, though I've been waking up in the middle of the night, but today, other than usual, without the music still on.
iz *jewish* considered the "race" with the *physical sensations* ?

Being Dirty

Why would be dirty and stimulated be humble?

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Connecting Ideas

People from the South also like to spend time connecting ideas ... so do people from the Mid-East.

All the Same

I just realized that people from the South and the Northeast all act like they're from the big city.

The just comment on suggestions, or things you get from other things, the basic things that you're supposed to figure out.

Separation

I've already decided to separate myself from things that afflict me.

I will participate as desired.  :|

Of course, I will be nice, but I need to see what real sacrifice is necessary in order to accomplish anything.

I noticed my logic has gone by the wayside, even by opposing sides, per se.

New Videos of Me

This is me at the airport auditioning to get training.  I thought I was going into the movies.  It's the same program that got the girl in We Bought a Zoo and Megan Fox and other successful artists into movies.

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Doing Things for Stimulation

I realized that if you allow people to be with others that you do accumulate influence from them in that way and don't have to worry about going crazy doing it for stimulation.

Tim Burton & Helena Bonham Carter

As we all know, Helena Bonham Carter is a good match for Tim Burton.  We're all "thankful" she's the one to be with him.  :)

Not to forget all of his adoring fans.  Helena Bonham Carter is very good with the fans, as well.  It's nice she's raised English, too.  I am also happy she's Jewish.

Dream

There was one where I was on vacation, though I can't remember what I was doing.

Next, I went to a place, a place that sells food, I think.  My dad was there, when we got back.  I had an assortments of desserts and didn't get fat!  I'd been having cake in the mornings with soup and Buffalo chicken strips.

Next, I got in a band next to a Korean girl.  I played quickly.  My dad was watching and was impressed.  I was playing a saxophone.  Like, I saw a few notes illustrated to be played by the Korean girl and played them.  Also, before that, I was getting out of a car.  I got up in the middle, too.

There was something scary in it when I was eating dessert, but I don't remember.  The place that sold food was rather kooky.

So, it was a morbid dream, me uncomfortable.  Maybe, I should have tried to go to sleep earlier, but I fared well and made some good posts online.

I was eating breakfast, woke up around 4:00 A.M. and got up around 5:50 A.M.  Now, I'm eating more!  You know, you're supposed to eat more in the morning and eat more small meals, like I did eat another meal soon after you've finished ... and then I last the day without going hungry and go to bed early.

Just woke up!

Good morning!