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Preferences

Different people have different preferences.

Doesn't Work

I don't think people can nor should try to get adults of older generations to replace ones of younger generations to like stimulate me like they would instead.

Things I Don't Really Want to Do

Why do people want me to do things I don't want to in certain situations?  Why put that kind of pressure on me?  It is weird, admittedly...

I just notice people are happy to discover I'm really imperfect, at least in my past, which they make count for various things.

Tacky Californians

California is okay, except for the tacky people.

No Point

I'm not going to live my life around the whims of others!  There's no point!!!!

Against Certain People

It seems people revel being on the same side against others.

Barriers

It seems we've identified the barriers in thinking straight.  :|

Following Mis-Logic

Why follow the mis-logic of others?

Not Making a Point

Some people think it's okay to not make the right point and do something really wrong.  It's always been that way.

When You Stop Thinking

Some people seem to even bark at people for wanting to feel stimulated when they can't think of anything but not in a bad way, you know "what" I'm saying?

Minding Your Own Business

Why would people do something they aren't supposed to, why not just mind your own business?

Feeling Things

I wonder why some people feel some things instead of others.

Suggestions

Why do people do things just to be safe, like it seems they've discredited something near and dear?

Mad

I was able to achieve great hights, like when I produced a tone in being vocally conducted when I had an extremely slim waist that day and sometimes then.  It's probably the same with other things.  It stops after that, though.

Anyway, I know sometimes I think I can keep going in something forever and then don't and don't know why.  I'm mad no one gives me a chance.  People have told me I was too good growing up all the time, and now they act like I never was worth it but technically not now.

Dream

I had another good long dream that was hard to remember.  I was in this building.  My mom was there, and my dad was also in the dream.  There was a huge building where I stayed.  I guess something was being filmed.  Anyway, this was a castle.  Our house was in a castle.  It was like an elaborate castle, a sorta mansion sized castle.  I don't remember what Tim Burton did this time, but I guess I've really gotten to know him from posting about him and seeing his videos of him.  So, I'm not perverted, but anyway I got this idea from his interview.  I had a good time around him.  For some reason, though, we were like on the floor and I was on top.  I was just playing, but I think he was hugging me and kissing me.  I probably kissed him back?  He kissed me on the face, like maybe the lips, big juicy kisses.  He said he only kisses his wife and me.  He's not really married, but they have kids.  I don't know why they aren't married nor why Johnny Depp didn't marry his girlfriend, with whom he has 2 pre-teen kids.  I was really sad when he left, though.  Anyway, he was visiting me initially, I guess, and gave me a sleeveless shirt, like the ones I see at Wal-Mart, the sorta scratchy stretchy material I don't get.  Something was about to happen.  I left to go somewhere, and so did he.  I know there was a fancy chair there, too.  So, it was sad and I was really sad.  I think I saw someone who used to live in the front of the castle.  I don't remember all we did.  She had a new set of parents.  They were older, casual people, maybe around age 60-65.  They were both obese.  The mother "didn't have much of a figure" and dyed her hair like reddish, and the father was more obese.  She went away with them, and I went back with my mom.  I went and slept on a sofa, which was like my grandma's house, this time arranged with 3 sofas.  I moved around them.  I kept wanting to stimulate myself but not like directly.  It was so bad, I was thinking of doing it on a person.  It was something tacky where I wanted to get stimulated, in a radical way.  It was a very submissive feeling.  My dad got upset he knew I wanted to get a pillow and put myself all over it.  I was under blankets on 2 or 3 sofas I was on, too.  It was time to get up, and I guess breakfast was being gotten.  I think, happily for me, after that, or maybe before, Tim Burton was supposed to visit me, you know for an hour or possibly 2 or possibly less.  It was supposed to be fun, again, more civilized and contained.  I was really looking forward to it.  It was just going to be fun and yes I would feel a lot because that's what happens when you see people you like, I'd hope.  Like, I was feeling all over.  It wasn't anything inappropriate other than how I described.  I was pretty sad, anyway, when he didn't actually come at all again.  I was left wondering if he ever would come.  It was in some room in this castle, which was kinda public.  It was going to be very contained and proper.  Just good fun.  However, I woke up, to feeling like I was before I went to bed, stimulated.  I don't know why I feel stimulated every time I get in bed.  However, something bothered me, and I stopped feeling as stimulated and ending up stimulating myself physically.  It didn't work, and I was happy for it.  I tried twice.  I am feeling better now, but after I wrote this dream I feel drained.  I was gonna get up and sing.  Maybe, I'll go eat and work out.  I might have the living area to myself.  I'll download Kate Bush's new version of "Running up That Hill," which she sung at the closing ceremony of the Olympics.  She's been singing but not performing since the 80s.  Well, I already have it on iTunes but will put it on my cell phone for if I run.  The other song I have is Orla Fallon's "Carrickfergus."  The other recording of her I like is the YouTube of her doing "Orinoco Flow" or "Sail Away," Enya's most famous song, I think, I'm pretty sure, or used to be, at least in Florida.  So, anyway, now I feel kinda bad, like I was put off being stimulated and then tried to stimulate myself, had to, happy it didn't happen.  I guess it won't.  :)

Stopping

I don't like how some people get you to stop doing things.

Conclusion

It seems like Tim Burton lets|has Helena Bonham Carter somehow like rule the world.  I just got that conclusion.

A Big Deal

Some people really make a big fuss when someone has an issue with someone.

Using Your Kids

Why use your kids to revel in a painful stereotype?

Having Issues

If you all have issues, why get mad about it?

The End

You know you're on the path to the same thing in the end.

Famous Kids

Why do people think famous kids deserve a better life?

Thinking Life Is Perfect

Why do some people think life is perfect?

Differences

Some people don't appreciate differences nor are able to accept who they are.

Compensation

So, some people enjoy early on sorta dizzying up your life?  Like, artificially?  Everyone has to compensate, at least in the U.S.?

Morality

It just seems they make their daughter make us jealous of her.  It's been that way ever since a certain point, but it's always been an issue.  It seems he giggles about it, his daughter.  She takes precedence in issues of morality.

Tim Burton

I noticed Tim Burton makes things confusing because like he seems so smart and the actors seem so like jealous.

On Rapport

Did you notice with people from the midwest you feel something completely right away?

A Big Problem

I feel people have been acting like I'm a big problem.

Controlling Others's Lives

Why do people like to take on a certain guise and control others?

Curse of Not Being All White

What's the curse of not being all white if you did everything right?

Intellectual People

Do you know when someone intellectual is in charge and it's nice but they decide to have fun but they're already in?  Like, you know to feel pleasure for entertainment?  Since that's what life's about?  Isn't that what everyone else has to do?