I feel bad because I felt funny about my lips after noticing them in a picture I put on Facebook. I was mad because I was talking to someone, and it made me notice them more and feel like I messed up on them. It's still not perfect.
I want to go somewhere but feel bad about how I reacted to these things on different levels. I was like in convulsions. I was already upset, of course, not sure why that happened.
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Dream
The most important part was we were going to visit Kate Bush. I found a totally lacy knee length white dress with short sleeves. I was gonna put on some thick lacy white gloves. I had on white stockings with a light run by the socks. I was playing with what socks to wear and had to put on my covered white shiny shoes. We were to visit her at either 5 or 8 and it was 5:15. They had just called. They left without me and I woke up. They were gonna get me at 7:30.
I think I had a dream I was talking to her and she was touching me.
So, before that, we were walking around this place. I was gonna write down a previous dream, but it's hard to remember.
There was one part where I saw an attractive lady who looked kinda like Kate Bush when I was with my aunt and cousin. She looked like her when she was younger with more crimpled hair.
Before we went to see Kate Bush after getting back I was looking at her site and it was different. There was a section for kids supposedly and on that tab a link to get an account. I don't know why I wasn't getting ready.
There was one part where my aunt was joking around in the front seat of the car looking like a rock singer from the 70s in a way. My grandma was with me and I feel good about her. We thought about how I ate, and supposedly I was the best. However, she made me feel like Kate Bush was still a baby but still liked to baby others herself. It was a feeling that seeped in from under us. However, it was a sort of "different" kind of idea. I didn't realize it was her who I had the idea with until I woke up.
The happiest part of this dream was getting ready to see Kate Bush while she was in town at her house, so clean and fancy and slender with my white lace on. I was also printing out a letter for her and ran out of paper so wasn't ready I guess. I was on the 3rd paragraph.
Oh yes, also, supposedly I was near Disney in a nicer place of the Orlando area. I was like at a mall and then was gonna see Kate Bush then. I saw some kids, like a tall slender young girl with light brown|dark blonde a little curly hair and bangs, so peaceful.
I think I had a dream I was talking to her and she was touching me.
So, before that, we were walking around this place. I was gonna write down a previous dream, but it's hard to remember.
There was one part where I saw an attractive lady who looked kinda like Kate Bush when I was with my aunt and cousin. She looked like her when she was younger with more crimpled hair.
Before we went to see Kate Bush after getting back I was looking at her site and it was different. There was a section for kids supposedly and on that tab a link to get an account. I don't know why I wasn't getting ready.
There was one part where my aunt was joking around in the front seat of the car looking like a rock singer from the 70s in a way. My grandma was with me and I feel good about her. We thought about how I ate, and supposedly I was the best. However, she made me feel like Kate Bush was still a baby but still liked to baby others herself. It was a feeling that seeped in from under us. However, it was a sort of "different" kind of idea. I didn't realize it was her who I had the idea with until I woke up.
The happiest part of this dream was getting ready to see Kate Bush while she was in town at her house, so clean and fancy and slender with my white lace on. I was also printing out a letter for her and ran out of paper so wasn't ready I guess. I was on the 3rd paragraph.
Oh yes, also, supposedly I was near Disney in a nicer place of the Orlando area. I was like at a mall and then was gonna see Kate Bush then. I saw some kids, like a tall slender young girl with light brown|dark blonde a little curly hair and bangs, so peaceful.
My Life
Please leave me alone and not center my life on what doesn't concern me.
Stop messing with my life.
Stop messing with my life.
Grotesque
I don't like being cornered as guilty and grotesque.
I can function and get by.
All good things come to an end.
I can function and get by.
All good things come to an end.
Cooling Off
I was just going along, but it seems things went wrong. I wonder what things will be like today and if I will need to cool off.
My Mom
It seems like my dad didn't like my mom being attentive to me and wished I was more stimulated in a bad way.
I don't know, but I do think she cared about me and listened to my dad.
I don't know, but I do think she cared about me and listened to my dad.
Leave me alone!!!!
I wish people would quit irritating me and ruining my day and making a big fuss over things. Leave me alone!!!!
You can't do that.
Something really set me off.
People were getting nicer to me but start fighting with me for no reason.
I just don't do some things, no matter what other people do.
People come up with the strangest things and trade things around. You can't do that.
People were getting nicer to me but start fighting with me for no reason.
I just don't do some things, no matter what other people do.
People come up with the strangest things and trade things around. You can't do that.
My Behavior
I never had an attitude nor told my parents I hated them, except maybe in a note when I was 5.
Fetish
It seems there is a fetish with what thoughts enter my mind.
Also, people like to do things with double meanings.
People have been overly strict about my life when I'm pretty good considering the circumstances, and I'm the only one who likes to really think, just that I sometimes deal with older people.
Also, people like to do things with double meanings.
People have been overly strict about my life when I'm pretty good considering the circumstances, and I'm the only one who likes to really think, just that I sometimes deal with older people.
Tim Burton
Tim Burton is so annoying ... or is he? He doesn't seem to want people like me to participate in popular culture. He wants to make out like it's cool to please others. Why is he in the dirt?
Tim Burton's Daughter
They're always trying to please Tim Burton's daughter, yet they make it look like they're very strict on her.
My ear hurts.
My right ear drum feels tense from moisture from ear plugs and when I had a pimple last weekend. I have to stop wearing them, but the other ear is okay. I like them when I sleep, but I guess I shouldn't, dunno.
Agencies
I'm excited I'll be applying to casting agencies and maybe also modeling agencies and commercial agencies on Monday, at least this one popular place Monday.
Tim & Helena
So, basically, people put Helena Bonham Carter up on a pedestal as though I could grovel over her relationship with Tim Burton?
5'1"
I just found I'm 5'1" to 5'4". I used to be less than 5'1", maybe even less than 5'1|2". I stopped growing after we moved from Florida and was short but tall before.
All Getting Worse and Dying, Basically
What do you think of people finding satisfaction in others paying for their own wrongs?
What Others Say
I don't care what some people say, and NEITHER DOES ANYONE ELSE.
I|WE ALREADY KNOW WHAT WE'RE DOING AND DON'T EVEN HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT!!!!
I|WE ALREADY KNOW WHAT WE'RE DOING AND DON'T EVEN HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT!!!!
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