Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Dreams

They're too hard to remember.  I know it was about seeing people on TV singing.  I was noticing their nuances for no given reason.  It was annoying me like they were cursing.  I couldn't do anything about it.

I'm loading more videos of me singing.

YouTube

People Using Me

Why do people use me to make themselves look better?

Morals

I already have my morals in order.

Young People

I notice some young people are incessant that you're in trouble.

Also, I don't think you can just go all the way with them and change them.  I think I've seen things like that happen.  You know it won't be perfect, though.  Change is always for the better, in some ways, it seems sometimes.

I forgot but had some other way of wording my first sentence.

I was disturbed while I was just singing, too.

Ah!  I wonder if I will go to sleep and wake up for supper.

New Videos Being Uploaded of Me Singing, Dancing, and Pretending to Play Guitar

YouTube

Downer

I want to eat out with my dad but feel I may be asleep and am running out of good food.

I'm getting my blood taken, having an African American therapist drive me to sign up for help for school, and getting a brain scan in the next 2 weeks.  I'm going to study theater if I don't get in a movie or something big enough.  My mom said this sign up process could last half a year to a year but not sure why.

So, I'm pretty upset by all this.

Why I Wouldn't...

want to be in a lot of Tim Burton films like Johnny Depp...

I wonder if other people would.  Already his kids have been in 2.

It just doesn't seem right.  I don't have to always be with one person.

I don't really think anyone would like it if I wanted to be, neither.

It's not to say no one else could.  I wonder if some people work so much better with him than others.  I'm not one for riling up attention.  It always embarrasses me and makes me feel guilty, but I obviously like to put on a show.

Why I think I wouldn't be right otherwise to be in like say 3 of his movies would be because I just don't feel it's for me.  I feel like more mature.  I mean it would be fun to be in his like class for a year or something like that I mean.  I imagine being in one movie of his would be nice.  He's pretty old.  I don't have to want to be in any of his movies.  I imagine just being in more than one movie with him or a choice person would be a treat in and of itself.

Something Nice

Tim Burton seems to like to just keep going.  That's his thing.  If something is right, just keep going.  I know I do that with like if I find something is nice.

Being Knocked Out!

I'm wondering if people are trying to knock me out to see if I can regain consciousness or some form of thinking intelligently again.

Help!

I was upset and bothered and now I feel disturbed by every sound I make!
Rotten Tomatoes
Rotten Tomatoes

Cursing

I never cursed a whole lot, though, and most all the time never that many risky words.

Living the Dream

So, I'm good and it's not okay because I'm 1|2 Chinese-Indonesian and part Native American.

I curse but never to hurt others and supposedly I can't live the dream of fun as a young adult!  I did stop cursing but only started just so as to set others at ease, I guess, but not much, you know like online maybe saying, "Oh my God!" or "Hell" or "stupid," as well, and pretty much any word.

Tim Burton

I guess Tim Burton thinks it's only okay if he breaks the rules.

11

I'm applying to 11 places to be an actor or model, rejected by 3.  :|

Being Wronged

It seems people are just trying to scare me, telling me I have to do all this stuff and account for things others don't and that it's no good the good I am.

Also, I'm worried, I won't go by my parents's inklings that don't make sense to criticize me and am worried they want to affect my future.  I mean my kids.  Like, they threaten me with time to mull over something I did wrong that wasn't on purpose, but just a thought, a reaction from being attacked because people area always thinking of curse words around me.

Losing Weight

It gets harder to lose weight by the day.  I did not know that.