Christina Barrett: 08/31/12

Friday, August 31, 2012

Johnny Depp Letting You Live

Johnny Depp lets you live. Tim Burton makes it seem like everything is impossible.

Not Let Off on a Good Note

You can not be let off on a good note with people with something.

Waiting to Happen

People get irritated when I have a good time. I should be allowed to grow and develop.

Grumpy

If people are grumpy, they need to turn in and not bother me.

Making It

It seems I needed to be equipped with something. I can make it in the world.

Pleasure

Actors are mad at a challenge.

Also, people are wary of others wanting to live life like an actor.

Tim Burton Worried?

I guess Tim Burton is upset if about people are hiding a violent interest in him because he directed Charlie and the Chocolate Factory ... rather just because of who he is.

Doesn't Have to Be True

People think that we get turned off and can't be turned on again, may be true but doesn't have to be.

Guilt

I hate the guilt you feel about moving between and living in different places.

Getting Turned On

Some people only get turned on around others.

Some people don't like it when their parents turn them on. Some people must get mad later.

Strengths to Please

So, Tim Burton's daughter displays strengths to please, supposedly that it's painful for others, but when certain people do it it's not. I've always been pretty patient for attention.

Something You Didn't Do

Why claim you did something you didn't do?

Hiding Thoughts

Why would you not do something good and hide it?

"Quality Not Quantity"

So, you can do things for better quality rather than to sacrifice because of others's misdeeds and petty whims.

It's all been about inducing guilt in me. It's not about other things. It's done in a positive way, though. This used to get me mad. Now, it's not as interesting in many ways, neither, though life always improves, it seems.

Why

So, why don't the directors in Hollywood and producers consider who should really play roles because it's not a game.

I just got turned down by 2 or 3 places.

Things happen.

People tend to get antsy when I enjoy myself. There's not much for me to do in a way, otherwise. Things happen.

Look-Alikes

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Chloë Moretz looks like Tim Burton and I guess Johnny Depp.

Not Yet

Young people aren't developed enough to submit to Burton.

Unwilling to Settle

Why are some people unwilling to settle|forgive?

Pieces Things

I guess Helena Bonham Carter pieces things out because she's almost half Jewish. I thought she was less before. That's what Wiki said.

Like, her dad has a more detailed look, and her mom, who's mostly Jewish, has a more flattened out look.

So, what?

So, do people torture you until you figure out what you did wrong or just torture you?

The Ability to Feel, More

Well, also, people who are in shape have the ability to feel more.

A Mix

It seems I couldn't have a life as good as my mom, nor as my dad, because I'm related to the other. I didn't simply receive approval of the strengths of both. Also, compared to others, supposedly I'd overall have it worse.

Fat Intellectuals

Intellectual people seen to have a disheveled look.

I'm guessing fat people feel more.

Getting By

I guess I need to not let things get to me.

I also like to go by without pleasant things changing, even if it doesn't seem factual.

Not as Special

I feel as though nothing is there for me in the world. Like, I can't cry out to anyone. Nothing matters.

In Some Way

It seems in some ways Tim Burton's life was in limbo when mine was already settled.

Letting Others in Your Home

If people are mad at complex things, why not let others into your own home?

Suffering Is Unnecessary

So, people want one person to suffer more than others.

Tim Burton's and Helena Bonham Carter's Relationship

Why are Tim Burton and Helena Bonham Carter so private about their relationship?

Same End

Ever wonder about people coming to the same conclusion but some being treated better?

"Frankenweenie"

I used to be under the illusion that Tim Burton's drawings were better than the clay remakes, but now I like the clay remakes at least of Frankenweenie.

Good at What You Do

I guess you have to be good at what you do.

Time to Move On

Apparently, it's time for me to move on and we've figured out what's good for me.

Super-Imposing

I guess Tim Burton seems to be imposing to show off he's there for us, so my supposedly being there for Chloë Moretz is strangely justified.

My family is not from the south nor the area Tim Burton|Johnny Depp is from. However, I'm from the same heritage and somehow they interest me to an extreme. I haven't been exposed much but had to function in my given stratosphere.

There for You

I guess Tim Burton thinks he's right because he's there for people, somehow...

Overly Serious

What do you think of people who don't really act serious but mold over themselves as that?

Making up For

People are just tearing away at me finding they have flaws I don't, lacking certain things, per se.

Shoes

For a project in 1997|8, when I was 11, I asked, since it was swarming around, if you liked - a group project - shoes or clothes better. A girl said her older sister said that was so insulting or "stupid" or something. I'm pretty sure, maybe even the very girl, claimed to like shoes so much better or something.. :p

Some Things

I just "don't do" some things, like belittle myself in outrageous ways. Well, in some ways I do. }:]

Clothes Set out for Each Specific Adult Age

It seems there are clothes set out for each specific adult age.

Different.

Why do some races want to remain different?

Suffering

I noticed my parents make me suffer the cruelties of the world and that the only way they do is through their kid|s.

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Death Is Alluring

So, did you notice death is alluring?

Not in Time?

So, Johnny Depp and Tim Burton think they're different from most people and that others don't deserve to be better than them because they weren't famous in time?

Evil

Whenever I make a point, people magnify it against me.

Hatred

People just seem to have a lot of hatred for me.

I don't see why that was necessary. Seems suspicious, things going good for me. I'm outta here. In the healing process as we speak.

Changes

So, howcome when I've moved, things for me changed?

For Being Poor?

Why would my parents punish me for being poor?

Being Flawed

I don't see any reason for people to be initially mad at me, like for being flawed.

The Wrong Kind of Attention

Why would you like take positive attention for granted and revel in the wrong kind?

Spoiled

Some people are spoiled with everyone doing all these things to please them.

Antsy About Race

I guess people in America get antsy about race.

Differences

People are all different and already compensate for differences.

Purpose

It's nice when you can feel something, but I hope you're actually doing something.

Guilt-Ridden

Some people do things wrong just because I'm guilty.

About When I Plan to Watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show"

I might not even go to the movies tonight. I just find myself occupied. I have to submit to some casting agencies. Maybe, when I'm more settled, I will. Who knows, though. It just seems I'm in some healing process, still. :|

Imperfection

If my parents didn't know things about me why get mad when I'm not all knowing, that fixing it doesn't work. That I should be punished. Like if I do something that seems funny, not really "what" I should be doing, but isn't as bad as they seem to claim.

Also, I'm never mean, but I don't like submit to if I feel insulted.

Why

Why are things okay for Johnny Depp's daughter that aren't okay for us? Like, supposedly everything she does is right. I feel my life has been thinking I'm not that good because of Johnny Depp because I'm slightly jealous of his fame.

Too Different

Why do people think that something they don't like is a relief from not thinking of they want but too much?

Getting Fat

It seems like every time I get fat, something goes wrong.

I don't feel particularly over-fed, just under-exercised.

Turned Down

I was just turned down from a casting agency. Sad face.

Self-Sufficience

I guess you're not supposed to mess with self-sufficient people. Too bad I failed at life, but I didn't totally fail.

Inconvenience

It seems things are made inconvenient in order to punish is for not taking opportunities, in the past.

Waiting

Some people are only for people who do a lot of thinking before they get stimulated, at all.

Stimulation

Some people are only for people who always want to be stimulated.

What's Going Around

I guess what's going around is that some people aren't perfect and deserve to get in movies.

Also, some people just want the benefit of being with prestigious people who are amiable, as well.

Rubbing It In

Why do people rub in the mistakes of Asians?

Also, they are the only hated race, which can't communicate with other races. There is a sentiment about not being Native American if you're Asian. There's also a sentiment of not being something solid like Chinese-Indonesian. There's also a sentiment against having a healthy mom. 8|

Twitter

The reason I Tweeted Chloë Moretz was because I felt invited seeing Justin Bieber on a late talk show. I was Tweeting Taylor Swift, and I followed Ellen DeGeneres form her, too. Maybe, before, I saw Chloë Moretz, unsure. Not sure if I responded.

Casual Versus Not

So, do you seem guilty skirting to be too nice? Is that something instilled in the brain?

Encouragement

I told Chloë Moretz I hoped she worked with Tim Burton again. Though, now I know it should have been a big deal more, which it was in reality, just seemed it was all about Johnny, when it wasn't, it was about Helena Bonham Carter and the other people, too.

So, maybe, she would develop more of a relationship if she were ready. I come from southeastern Florida, northeastern Florida, the Cleveland area, the New Orleans area, and Orlando. So, I pretty much connect with Tim Burton on a lot of levels and as a person. I think that's why with me the experience is more a build of preconceived ideas.

Something to Do

People act like though I just don't deserve anything so think I shouldn't Tweet Chloë Moretz. Like, they think I'm like not in good condition. It's a good thing to do. I mean, you benefit from visiting a nursing home.

Twitter

So should I have Tweeted Chloë Moretz? I could have done something else. Maybe, I just should not have Tweeted the other people, too. I'm not Tweeting them, anymore, just her and Ellen DeGeneres.

I'm guessing she didn't have it the best she could with Burton, but I really don't know why.

I think she liked me Tweeting, couldn't stop it, but was able to use it against me for stealing attention from Burton, though she talks to other people. I don't understand. One less might be good, but I dunno. I did Tweet her every day. She didn't have to read it. I posted that, too, I think. I just wanted to do it for my own good. It was unfortunate it clashed with Dark Shadows, but it was exciting for me. I mean it's her decision to Tweet. Johnny Depp, Helena Bonham Carter, and Tim Burton used to Tweet, until I got on Twitter. Johnny Depp said hi. Helena Bonham Carter added me. Tim Burton was talking about his lovely wife, left, and then came back. Well, technically, they are not married but are partners and parents.

Goofballs! :D

People from the northeast tend to like to goof around, unless you were born in NYC.

Preference

I know when I lived in Florida, where I'm from, I never knew why I did what I did. I just did what seemed customary. When I lived in the New Orleans area, everything was for a reason, every minute dimension. I lived in the New Orleans area for 9 years. I've lived in Florida for 18 years. Well, I 'm 26, so something like that. If only I knew what I was doing in Florida, though. Also, life seemed impossible if you didn't have pink skin, blue eyes, and blonde hair.

Useless

So, supposedly I'm just a hopeless case as far as being raised and expected to know how to act and do it. However, I think I was traumatized by racism and it affected my judgement and ability to be controlled.

I'm interested in how it affected my ability to be controlled. That could happen to a loved one and they would become weak and useless.

Dream

It's hard to remember now. I was in bed relaxing, trying to enjoy myself, but things kept getting in the way.

Oh yea, I was at school. I went to class. I was in Talented Theater. It was the first day of high school. I went to Chemistry II, though, which was just called Chemistry. No, wait, it was the first day of the last year of high school in that way. We were in class, and I think the teacher liked me. I remember walking up the row. I was kinda in the middle. I remember picking an appropriate seat in a class, like near the middle.

Then, we went to eat. There were different kinds of "donuts." Cakes with icing, but like donuts, but it turned out most were something else, not much icing or a huge cake covered in frosting. There were actually lots of these cakes. Most people got these little baguette style donuts covered in pink and yellow icing, maybe not with sprinkles. There were like cases along a corner and in the middle.

I was walking around late. I found a like huge bon bon at a case with a register. The lady asked something ... didn't know what she said was in it. I'm pretty sure they had sprinkles. I think one was chocolate and one was pink and maybe one more, but as I looked it turned out there was one. I think my dream ended then.

And, yes, I was thinking of Tim Burton in my subconscious. Thought, it looks like I got bumped back. Oh, yea, I was supposed to look up a Jewish school in the area that I think also hosts college. I went to a Baptist school that hosted high school but left because it was unaccredited for college. I went to a Methodist conservatory of music during a hurricane, too. The Baptist school was in the New Orleans area, and the Methodist conservatory was at the top of the country under the Great Lakes.

The high school was like grayish and kinda big. I had a hard time trekking to it. I just did some strength training yesterday, Jillian Michaels. I also have a one that would help with breathing, endurance or cardiovascular. I guess I'll switch and do that one today. These videos have been lying around for almost a month. I got them at Target. I couldn't afford the one with the meal plan but probably have no need to use it. I'd been jogging, every day for a while, like months jogging nearly every day I think and maybe years jogging off and on. Growing up, I worked out, too. I also need time to think.

In my dream, I don't think I'd survive the Chemistry class. I was hoping I would. I guess I need to catch up on rest before I go about daily activities again.

Also, I got a pimple in my ear I think from using old waterproof temporary ... disposable ear plugs because they put pressure on my ear for a long time and I guess were dirty. It hurts even in reaction to classical music. It's concentrated the pain in my body in one place, like how you feel better actually after you're sick, except I don't feel like wiped out in the same way. I feel purified. I used the foam disposable ones again.